Being a momma for the first time
But it was not until June 2008 that I had the pleasure of knowing that I would be a mother for the first time. Although I’ll try, I’m telling you beforehand that the fusion of emotions I felt is almost impossible to describe. It had opened up a whole new world of feelings within me. I felt a different level of excitement, another kind of joy, another kind of fear, and even another kind of sadness. As my daughter grew inside me, so did “that” MOTHER LOVE within me.
Motherhood was something that always fascinated me. As a child, I loved to play with my friends and observe how they were treated by their mommas. In their house, everything seemed magnificent to me, from the loving looks of their mothers to the rebuke they gave them, which, even when loaded with authority, sounded lovingly in my ears. But what fascinated me most was to see my friends mumble with their mothers when they disagreed with something, or when they did not want to do something. In my world that was impossible. Thus I began to realize that it was part of a love I did not know: mother’s love. And from that moment I knew that one day when I was old enough, I would be Mother.
And after feeling the first kicks, after getting like a whale (haha, seriously I gained over 25 kg), after having my feet completely swollen and cracked (yes cracked hahaha), in January 2009 I finally had my daughter on my hands for the first time. Beautiful, healthy and wonderful. I called her Judith-Bonga, just as my momma. And looking at her I burst, but I burst out of love. All uncertainties vanished, the past no longer mattered much, only the present and the future mattered. So I knew that no matter what life would throw in our path, we would be fine. That I would give my best to make sure we were all right. I asked God to give us just life and good health.
I hope you have enjoyed the text and mommas do not be reluctant to share your experience as first-time mothers. Do not forget to dream and always fight for the fulfillment of your dreams.